a new day, a new start

Someone once said that the only people who fail in life are the ones who quit or never try.

On that note, I have started a new diet. After working out my BMR and that I want to lose 10kg in 10 weeks (actually 1kg a week sounds kinda easy doesn't it?) I've worked out that I can eat 600cal a day and lose the 10kg and lose the weight without any other effort.

So I've aimed for 500cal a day to give myself a 100cal overdraught in case I need it. Today is day 1 and I'm learning a few things already.

The first is that 500cal is actually a decent amount of food. I've had a tiny apple, a can of sugar free V, a bowl of noodles, a sausage, a cup of miso soup, and half a cup of vegetables. And if I hadn't caved and had the 280cal noodles, I could've had a bit of muesli and some rice of those vegetables. So in terms of amount, it's heaps.

The second thing I've learnt is that fasting is much easier than eating a small amount. I mean, I'm full, not hungry at all, but eating that much has made me greedy for more. I could've saved 15cal on the miso soup but I'm really craving food and I could eat the rest of the vegetables which would be about 100cal so I think the 15cal is a good trade off.

Third is that I tend to eat everything in one big go, at dinner. I'm going to try spread out my food over tomorrow and see if that makes any difference. I so better be losing weight because of this. I'm going to kick my compulsive overeating habit this time.

I'm going to have a busier day tomorrow so hopefully that will distract me from the difficulties of fighting cravings.

I have to be 49kg in 10 weeks. I just have to. That's when I work for 4 weeks under Prof CNM. It's very important that I'm at the first goal weight by then. I've set myself a deadline, and I will make it. That's about 8.5kg that I need to lose by then. It will also be the lightest I've ever been. But considering my goal weight is 90lbs, which is just under 41kg.

I have a feeling that 49kg to 41kg is going to be very difficult, or at least much harder than 57.5-49kg. But like I've always said, one step at a time (one hope then another). But 49kg is what I will weight when I work for Prof CNM. Also, more importantly, I want him and other people to notice that I've lost weight. I've gone from 65kg to 57.5kg and nobody has noticed :(

But I'm sure someone will notice a 65kg-49kg weight loss. Or so I hope. I want people to think I'm thin.