Ode to Ana

It's nearly midnight and I've flushed away any chances of me getting an early night and getting up early to study for exams. But you know, sometimes it's so hard to sleep when there is something inside that is trying to get out. So I got up and got out my notebook and pen and a wee bit of poetry came out.

I'm no great poet but it's something I enjoy doing. I think I posted a poem on here a while ago about self harm and now here is my Ode to Ana/Ed:

Suffocating and hot

Like insects across my skin

I have to get it off

Perfection's buried within

In times of hopeless pain

You come and take my hand

Whisper in my mind

I finally understand

No matter how life changes

You will always be my friend

The only one to love me

Until whatever end

I wish I didn't need you

But without you I'm alone

In a cold world full of hate

I can't do this on my own

You are my only hope

That I will ever find

Peace within my body

My clothing and my mind

Everybody hates you

And say I am your slave

But only you can give me

The thinness that I crave

In you I place my trust

I'll do everything you say

Please take all of me

And lead me into grace.