An obsession with food and being thin underlies everything in my life. The successes and failures in my journey are detailed here with the other ups and downs of my life in general. Politically incorrect proana prose and rants are scattered throughout and I hope to share my experiences and maybe entertain some of you.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
I don't care if it hurts I want to have control I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul I want you to notice when I'm not around You're so fucking special I wish I was special
In the words of "Creep" by Radiohead and it describes e-x-a-c-t-l-y how I feel in general. Exactly. I could never have put it better myself. At the end of the day, all the diets, the exercise, the clothes, the make up and hair, it's all in pursuit of perfection.
I'm so flawed it feels like I'll never get there but each step closer to it is an improvement and I've got to take what I can get. I can't wait to be thin. I wish I could wake up one day and be thin. Or not wake up at all.