Thursday, December 1, 2011
Fiandshalimer, jackie, Christina, aliceana and Bella. Thank you lovely ladies for your lovely, lovely comments. It's very lovely. Lovely. As you see, I'm demonstrating my vast vocabulary for you there.
HELLO BELLA!!! Follower number 50. WHAT! I can't believe I have 50 followers. That's just crazy. And you were saying how smart I sounded. Lol. Because so far in this post I haven't sounded very smart at all. Job no. 2 is killing me so normal mental status will resume after today. Which is my deadline for finishing the job.
Well I just weighed in at 119lbs. *breathes huge sigh of relief* When I started I was 124lbs and so I'm 5lbs down and hugely relieved. You may remember that I had a fit of joy when I hit 119lbs last time, but it didn't last long because I gained weight. I'm so glad I'm back here. 115lbs here I come! However, I don't know how I'm going to lose 2lbs with the weekend coming up. Not to mention my birthday next Monday. Just a nightmare because my family celebrates everything with a feast.
But onto the theme of today's post...I feel like Sesame St...you know, today's post was brought to you by the letter N. N for noticing.
I'm noticing that I'm smaller. Even after I eat, my abdomen doesn't pouch out as much as it used to, which is something that I'm really, really enjoying. I'm loving trying on my old clothes and seeing that they don't get stretched as much as they used to. There is progress!!!!!
As long as I'm moving in the right direction. Yesterday I sat down and suddenly noticed how huge my thighs are. They're smaller than they used to be, but omg, they are still enormous. I feel so ashamed of them! Still, take what you can get, as I always say. One day I will have the thin, lithe gazelle legs that I've always wanted. Granted, I'll have a shorter version because my legs are so short.
I've decided to just not have the laxies, unless I seriously can't stop myself. My bowels are now back to their usual irritable self. Fiandshalimer, thanks for reminding me. I mean, I knew all that, all the stuff laxies do, I knew all that but for some reason it didn't click. Then the colostomy thing, that's what finally made me think I should stop entirely. I did my time in general surgery (loved it!) and I've seen patients with colostomies and failed anastamoses and rectal prolapses, I've even done a few colostomies. I remember thinking that that truly was a fate worse than death. I would rather die than have a permanent colostomy.
On the downside, I did notice something yesterday that makes me a little worried. I went for a run and I just couldn't do it. I was so tired and I had to walk every now and then. I got breathless so easily. It probably means I'm getting anaemic again. From the restricting and mostly eating vegetables, I'm probably anaemic. I'm going to have to think about how to proceed from here...
On a completely different note, met a really good looking guy yesterday. Don't go getting excited though, he's Australian and is going back to Australia on Monday. He was in theatre with me and the professor. Really smart guy and he was also SO BIG. Like, really tall and quite well built, even if I say so myself. He made me feel really small, which is probably why I liked him. A nice, smart, tall, hunky Aussie guy. And now, I apply my rule that I use for all medical students and doctors: taken until proven otherwise. Not that it matters, I won't see him again.